There are moments in life where I feel I can’t hold on any longer, when I feel like I don’t have the strength. Moments when bad news hits me in the gut suddenly or stress and pressure mount up to the point I feel like I will fail under the strain.
Moments when I am trembling, shaking, asking G-d to take it all away.
In my workouts, there are often times I shake. My legs tremble, my muscles threatening to give way, a deep burning. I’ve learned that this edge, right there, is where the greatest growth happens. By bringing my muscles to that point, the point of exhaustion where they can barely hold position, I force them to grow stronger, to be able to more.
Shaking is where the magic happens, not comfort. Shaking is where growth occurs, where we must adapt to new circumstances and find strength we never knew we had.
And in life, when I’m trembling, when I’m shaking, when I don’t feel I can give or do any more…that is often where my growth comes and I find I do have just a little bit more. I can go a little bit further than I thought I could. I can grow and adapt and overcome and learn from the experiences my life brings me.
I just sometimes wish the G-d didn’t have such confidence in me that He knows He can push me so much further than what I think I can do. There’s no faking being weaker to Him since He made me. He knows when it’s time for heavier weights or more challenging positions.
He knows when I’m ready to level up far before I do and His sympathy for my tears doesn’t stop Him from training me to my highest level.